An anonymous trader shares one of his journal entries...

Monday, March 18th, 2024

One of those days that just makes me question everything. Been up since 4:30 AM because I couldn't sleep, obsessing over last week's losses. Thought getting an earlier start would help me "prepare better." What a joke.

Had my home office all set up – four monitors running, MarketWatch open, CNBC in the background, StockTwits feed scrolling. Felt like a real trader, you know? Then reality hit when the market opened.

$TSLA had this perfect bull flag pattern forming. Literally textbook. The kind you see in all those trading courses I've wasted money on. I took all the "right" steps – drew my lines, set my alerts, even wrote down my entry and exit points. But when it started moving? Total deer in headlights moment. Just sat there watching, hands frozen over my keyboard, as it broke out exactly like it was supposed to.

The worst part? That trading room I'm in (another $199/month I can barely afford) was going crazy about it. Everyone posting their gains. "$2K secured!" "$5K day already!" Meanwhile, I'm just sitting here, watching my actual account balance go nowhere.

Had to turn my phone off during lunch because my dad keeps sending me job listings. "Just trying to help," he says. Yeah, thanks Dad. Really needed that VP of Sales position in my inbox right after blowing another trade. At least at my old corporate job, I knew exactly how much I'd lose every day of my life to the grind. This uncertainty is eating me alive.

Lost it a bit after lunch. Started revenge trading $META, trying to make back morning losses. Three trades, three losses. Classic pattern: hesitate on the good setup, then overtrade garbage setups to compensate. Down $1,200 for the day. That's two weeks of regular people's grocery money just... gone.

Emily (my daughter) asked if I could come to her soccer game this weekend. Had to tell her I need to study charts and work on my "trading education." The look on her face... I'm missing her growing up because I'm chasing this dream, and I'm not even succeeding at it.

Karen (my wife) left a job listing on my desk – some finance position at her brother's company. She tried to be subtle about it, but message received. Four months since my last profitable month will do that to a marriage. Keep telling her "I'm still learning," but that excuse is getting old. Even to my own ears.

Just checked my trading journal stats:

  • Win rate dropped to 34% this month
  • Average win: $300
  • Average loss: $800
  • Account down 22% YTD

You know what's really messing with my head? Tommy, this 23-year-old kid in my trading Discord, just posted his $25K day trading the exact same $TSLA setup I was too scared to take. He's probably trading from his parent's basement, and here I am, 15 years his senior, with an MBA, paralyzed by fear and self-doubt.

Spent another two hours after market close watching YouTube trading videos. "Master this ONE pattern!" Yeah, right. More like master watching other people make money while I collect patterns like Pokémon cards without ever using them effectively.

Tomorrow's another day, I guess. But honestly? I'm starting to wonder how many more "tomorrow's" I have left before I have to admit this isn't working. Account's getting smaller, confidence is shot, and that old corporate job isn't looking as soul-crushing as it used to.

Going to bed. Maybe I'll dream of actually taking a trade instead of just watching them.

P.S. Just got another "concerned" text from my mom about "that gambling thing you're doing with stocks." Perfect end to a perfect day.

Listen...

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Trading isn't just about money. It's about:
• The promises you made to your family
• The freedom you dreamed about
• The respect you deserve

But right now?
You're stuck in the worst possible place:

Too committed to quit.
Too frustrated to succeed.
Too proud to ask for help.

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Those Discord traders posting win after win?

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